I Kill For Pleasure...

Dugaan...

2011-04-08T03:33:00.000-07:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Volbeat - Evelyn -

Hahaha~!!!

Rsa cam celaka pon ada gak la nih...HP kesayanganku (Nokia xpress music erm...Pa model pon aku xingat) sedang mencelakakn diri beliau dengan jayanya...

Peliaq toi...

La nih xleh nk switch on sbb button nk "on" rosak...

Dok tekan-tekan-tekan...Xlei nk pi gak...

Dah gagah abeh dh tuuu~

Nih yg kedua nih...

Haaa...

Nih bru isi sebetoinya...

Td just pembuka cerita...Kiranya,kalau pi kenduri tuh,baru dok hirup teh sambei boh laksa dlu (uih!!!Lapaq laksa lak dahhh)...

Nih pasai dugaan melihat rakan-rakan serta sahabat-sahabat berjaya...

Nih bukan kes dengki ka apa nooo~

Nih just...Erm...Terkilan sebab xdapat nk join depa skali pi sambung blajaq kat luaq ngara...

Nak buat lagu mna...Sndri buat,sndri tanggung la beb!!!Org soh pi blajaq,hat dok pi buat mnatang len buat pa kn???La nih,padan muka sndri...HAHAHA!!!

Time kt KYUEM tuh laaa,bru nk kenai dunia...

Mau dak,Skola rendah dr drjh 1 smpi 6,dok takut kt pmpuan...

Masuk form 1 smpi form 3 kt ipoh,dok fobia ag,tp dikurgkn...Ditmbh lak dgn ke-antisosialan nih...HAHAHA!!!

Masuk form 4 smpi form 5,dok skola kat ASiS,skola sausage lak...

HAHAHA!!!

Bila masuk KYUEM tuh laaa,bru cerah sket mata...Dapat tengok pmpuan2 cekci(soli cik Anis!!!) hat pakai bju pi klas seghupa mcm nk kluaq pi pekan...Dpt mengenal bnda2 xelok...Rokok tuh toksah dok kira laaa,tuh strt dr frm 1 ag...Msuk form 3 yg jd perokok tegar tanpa lesen bersepadu...

Bnyk bnda ag laaa yg "kenai" kat KY tuh...Herm...Macam2...

Oleh sebab2 itulah,aku pi lak tinggai stadi,dok hu-ha,hu-ha bnyk sgt...Last2,kantoi A-Levels... Org len suma wat kendughi kesyukuran dpt fly,aku pi balun nasik kenduri kawin...Sapa kawen pon aku tatao...Aku men ikut Atak aku jaaa...Dh dia ajak makan cemei,aku balun ja laaa...

Bila teringat balik,sronok tuh mmg bnyk...Bnyk sgt kenangan kat apartment F-L2-10 (apartment gua la beb,sarang melakukan jenayah terancang...Hehehe)...Tapi bila sampai penghujung flashback,msti sedih nya...Hat len suma dok jelajah negara org,aku nih terduduk kat cni ag...Hanya mampu melihat,tersenyum,dan mendoakan yg terbaik utk depa2 kat sana...

Nak teghiak pon xguna dah...Bnda suma dh lepaih...Nih nk tunggu depa balik lak bulan 6 nnti... Nk sembang2 ngan depa...

La nih,mmg rsa geram n sedih...Tgk depa post mcm2 kat fesbuk...Gambaq lah...Update status nga eurotrip lah...Upload video lah...Yang paling aku bengang n rsa nk maki(actually,dh maki dh pun),bila pi tag aku utk event kat sana...APA LANCAU PUKI BABI LA WEI!!!Bukan pa,mcm memperli aku ja nih...Mmg buat panaih jaaa~

Tp yg untuk len2 tuh(new status,pictures,vids,etc.),mmg aku xlei nk buat pa2 la...Just hanya mampu tersenyum,dan menangis dlm hati...Ada yg ok tuh,ok laaa...Ada yg sstgh tuh,aku add, asyik reject jaaa...Mampuih pi kat hng laaa...Yg aku leh buat utk2 mmber2 aku,just tumpang gembira ja laaa...

Herm...

La nih,aku kat MMU,Cyberjaya...Dugaan lagi hebat...Tapi,kawalan diri jd lagi hebat gak...Faktor utama,duit...Mahai gak laaa nk idup kat situ...Kna pandai carik tmpt mkn yg murah,bru lei survive...Hehehe...

Herm...

Itu ja laaa crita takat nih...

Kalo rajin,aku update lagi laaa...Tatao laaa bila tuh...HAHAHA!!!

#3

Zombie di Malaysia???

2010-10-13T15:33:00.000-07:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Diesel Machine - Bones and All -

YAAA~!!!

Topik diatas amat menarik untuk kita bualkan yaaa~!!!!

ZOMBIE!!!

Di Malaysia???

Kenapa di malaysia takdak filem zombie???

Dan jangan ckp filem Zombie Kampung Pisang, sebab itu bukan cita zombie...

Itu cita katun yang dilakonkan oleh manusia...

Zombie-zombie dalam crita tersebut mcm baru terjatuh dlm parit ...Memang mcm bangang...

Topik kali ini untuk cita zombie yang dahsyat giler!!!Tapi awat xdak kat malaysia???

Kalo KL Drift lei dibuat sempena nak tiru Tokyo Drift, xkan laaaa xlei buat cita Penduduk Jahat (Resident Evil) atau Doploh Lapan (28) hari/minggu kemudian(28 Days/weeks Later) atau pon Malam/Senja/Hari/Tanah/Dairi untuk orang yang mati (Night/Dawn/Day/Land/Diary of the Dead)???

Ada beberapa faktor penting yang dirasakan agak penting untuk tidak membuat cita zombie nih kat malaysia...

1 -->Orang Malaysia lebih takut antu len cthnya puntianak,pocong,penanggal,etc kerana rupa serta pemakaian mereka lebih misterius dan angker berbanding zombie yang pakai jeans serta tshirt Evisu dan bermuka ayu ala-ala cik Ros taman murni...

2-->Kalo anda perasan (bukan perasaan atau perasan cun), rumah2 di malaysia nih kebanyakannya ada besi grill(aku pon tatao nak eja menatang nih lgu mna) yang cover tingkap2 dan pintu2 nih...Sooo, lgu mna zombie nak masuk kalau mcm tuh???Baek kita dok umah tengok tv sambil menjamu selera tatkala menyedut asap rokok yang berkepul-kepul itu...Maka zombie pon akan terkapai2 meminta secebis bantuan serta ihsan dan simpati kita bagi menyediakan sedikit daging untuk mereka jamah bersama2 diluar pintu rumah kita...

#3-->Orang malaysia nih kadang2 terlebih hero...Yaaa,hero... Bukan mcm dalam KAPOWW tuh...Itu hero bangang...Ini mcm hero dalam cita tamil tuuh...Haaa~Jadiii, kalau dah suma orang nak jadi hero, sapa yang nak ditugaskan untuk menjadi takut dan menjerit dikala zombie menyerang tanpa rasa ragu2???Kalau macam nih, zombie yang lari ketakutan sebab manusia yang gila nak bunuh zombie...Ingat pesta ka apa...Ditambah pula, banyak pengamal-pengamal silat khususnya yang dikatakan boleh terbang serta menjadi kebal... Kalau macam tuh, sampai patah gigi zombie tuh gigit pun konferm tak lut...

YAAA~!!!

Jadi???

Bolehkah kita cuba untuk buat filem zombie kalau perkara2 diatas diatasi???

Hehehe~

Itu kena tanya penerbit~

#3

Just...Herm...

2010-10-07T03:33:00.000-07:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : The Rain - Dengar Bisikku-

It's been more than 1 year since I've last updated my blog...

I dunno why, I felt my passion for this blog has decreased...

But then, HERE I AM!!! Updating this stupid blog...

I dunno what should I write...

I've finished my 2 years studying period doing A-Levels in KYUEM...

Well, my results sucks...So, I'll be continuing my studies locally...

UIAM (Universiti Islam Antarabangsa Malaysia, or IIUM) would be my choice...

I wanted to apply for UM but I dunno when the intake is...

So, I'll just stick to UIAM...

A lot of things happened after my A-Levels, apart from me not flying to UK that is...

My Sister ( Ameelia)'s lover came "merisik" on the 2nd day of Syawal... It was a simple ceremony... I'm not gonna talk much bout it, it makes me sick... Not the ceremony, but the people that attended the ceremony... FUCK MY AUNTS!!!

Well... Enough with this shit...
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Right now, things aren't looking too good for me and my Angel...

She's frustrated with me not replying her messages...

Well, I'm the one to be blame...Seriously... I was too busy playing games or doing something that is not important...

In other words, I'm wasting my fucking time doing shits...

I should spend more time being with her...Electronically that is... It's hard for us to even meet once a month... Believe it or not, we went out for only 15 times in this past 31 months we're dating... 4 days ago (3rd of October) marks our 31 months of we being together... And we only went out for 15 times!!! Yeah,we're THAT good~

Now, she's going to take some time to cool off... She started to use my name and her name when texting, and it kinda makes me sad... Because I know there's nothing that I can do about it... I have to give her some time to relax... Her finals are approaching... She told me that she's stressed, and doesn't want me to add up to her stress... I should've replied her message faster, not taking 10 to 30 minutes doing something that can be done in less that 30 seconds...

Right now, I'm so fucking tensed... It's only been 2 days since she started texting me like I'm just a friend... I am her friend, but this is different...I felt myself stranded on a fucking island, with her sailing away from me on a nice white coloured ship... To sum things up, I'M A FUCKING MESS!!! She's beginning to treat me like a normal friend, a guy with no special relations to her... And that makes me feel like an ASSHOLE!!!

I really hope that this won't be the beginning of the end of our beautiful relationship... I'm sorry Angel... I'll try to be a better lover... Herm...

#3

Rec...

2009-07-13T03:33:00.000-07:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Sodom - Remember the Fallen -

This is not going to be a long post~

Yeah~

Ngehehehe~

Anyway, I just wanted to share some things I have been doing this week~

Hahaha~

It was a chaotic (for me at least) week~

Me and my bro, Ateh went for bowling…A FUCKIN LOT!!!

HAHAHA!!!

Yesterday, we went for bowling (again)…

And guess what???

I SCORED 202!!!

It has been a long time since I last scored 200 and above~

A fuckin long time, fellas~

Same goes to my bro, Ateh who scored 216~!!!

Hahaha~

2 days ago, me, Ateh and my eldest bro, Izam went for jamming…

It wasn’t just a normal jamming session…

WE DID A RECORDING SESSION!!!

Hahaha~

We jammed 5 songs(cuz we have to pay a fuckin lot for 1 hour session…30 mins recording, 30 mins erm, I don’t know…Something to do with aligning the music by the soundman…Credit goes to Tap Music…)…~

This is the list of songs we jammed/recorded :

1.Angin (Dewa)

2.Ashes to Ashes (Faith No More)

3.Attitude (Sepultura)

4.Remember The Fallen (Sodom)

5.Magic Dragon (Sodom)

I gave our band the name All Joint Suicide…The shorter form for this name is AJS which originally stand for “Anak Ja’afar Siddik”…But hey, I can’t put my Father’s name as the band’s name!!!We played trash-fuckin-metal for God’s sake!!!

The lineup for this band:

Ateh - Guitarist (a fuckin good one, I tell you)

Izam - Drummer (He introduced me to Sodom…Thanx bro!!!)

Afiq – Vocals (Ngahahaha!!! I suck, I know~)

I fucked up during the recording… I fucked up my throat earlier thanks to Dunhill... AND, because I forgot to bring mineral water... So, my voice sounded like a constipated man trying to force the shit out of his anus… Huuu~

I have the mp3 in my hp… I’ll keep it to myself~

Today, I’ll be going back to KYUEM, sadly~

HUUU~!!!

NAK CUTI LAGI LAAA!!!

I’ll miss my family a lot~

Huuu~

Eee-Powh!!!

2009-07-05T03:33:00.000-07:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS POST : Cattle Decapitation - Regret & The Grave -

Waaa~

I just came back from Ipoh~

A 5-days trip to Ipoh~

Waaa~

It was superb!!!

Let me inform you guys first, I stayed in Ipoh for 5 years...Yerp...5 FUCKIN years!!!

That's why I love spending my time in Ipoh...I have lots of friends there!!! Close friends, at least~

I started my journey on Tuesday morning (Tengkiu Mara Liner!!!)...I spent the night at one of my good friend's house,Khairul Amri bin Aznan(yeah,your name is stated here,my fuckin friend)...Adri Arshad(you too,my fucked up friend!!!) picked me up when I arrived in ipoh (medan gopeng,ku merinduimu)...I can't really remember what we did or where we went after that...I think we went for lunch...Hahaha...The first day,nothing much happened cuz Krol was sick...We just lepak2 and sembang2 in his room...Too bad Khairil Azuwa bin Abd. Khalid wasn't with us...He's currntly doing IB to go Japan...Sponsored by JPA... We went for karaoke when I was in Ipoh!!!Waaa!!! The karaoke place was situated in Ipoh Garden Plaza...The E-Box Karaoke!!!Can u imagine,RM10 for 4 hours of non-stop lung-bursting karaoke???!!!IT WAS A HELL OF A GOOD TIME!!! For fuck's sake,we even sang the song Ayam by Jalil Hamid,Aci-aci buka pintu, and 1 song by Aishah and another one by Shima!!!Hahaha!!!But it was a GREAT time...A lot of Pepsi and food...Yerp,free food!!!Ngahahaha~Don't ask me the amount of cigarette smoked by me and Joe (Amirul Johari,u are one fucked up bastard)...Hahaha~

Owh yeah,one night,when me and Krol came back to his home from ,erm,I can't remember where,his mom fell sick...His Mom and Dad went to the hospital immediately...She ate pulut and durian before that...Maybe it was "angin"...The next day,me and Krol went to the hospital (Ipoh Specialist Centre...A fuckin cool and cold hospital)...

THE PREMIER WARD!!!(5TH FLOOR) I nearly shed tears when I saw Krol's Mom on the hospital bed...Old memories struck my fuckin head...Herm...She's gonna be fine...

Then,Krol encountered his old crush,Zati Asma...Let me tell you guys a bit bout Zati...She's sweet and good-hearted...Erm,shorter than me but not too short...And she's studying nursing in KPJ...Right now,she is finishing her second semester as a REAL nurse in ISC(Ipoh Specialists Centre)... That's it,you have to see her first before you make any fuckin judgement bout her being... I don't have any pics of her...If I do,My Angel might transform into an Angel of Death and kill me... Heee~LABIU BEBEH!!!

This is NOT Zati Asma... Owh yeah,I bought a fuckin pair of slippers at Gerbang Malam!!!Hahaha!!!Ciplak nya maaa~It cost me RM20...Hehehe~Owh, we did went for a frame of snooker at greentown...Haaa~I WON THE FUCKIN FRAME!!!Ngahahaha!!!Erm,just for the record,I smoke 1 pack of cigarettes(20 cigs...Dunhill,of course) per day during my stay inIpoh~Ngehehehe~SOLI AGAIN MY ANGEL!!!LABIU BEBEH!!!

All of us(Me,Krol,Adri,Joe) went to visit Krol's Mum one night...We went to check-out the nurses as well...Ngahahaha...No pics of the nurses,sadly...But I can tell you this,they're hot as fuckin hell!!Ngahahaha~

FROM LEFT:Joe and AdriKrol and his Mum...GET WELL SOON ANTIE!!!
Krol's Dad...
Friday,me,Krol and his Dad went to Malacca for Krol's UiTM registration...IT WAS A FUCKED UP DAY!!!The night before,me and Krol went to sleep at Adri's house...I slept at 5.33 a.m, playing Army of Two on the Xbox360...It was sooo fuckin awesome!!!ARGH!!!I WANT TO HAVE AN XBOX360!!!Huuu~ On the way back,we picked up Krol's Opah...Heee...Then back to the hospital...Aiyaaa~And I forgot to bring my sweater along...Huuu~

DALAM LIFT OOO!!! I think that's it for now....At least~

I can't fuckin remember the exact events during this trip...Mental block~

Fuck this shit...

Ciao fellas...

#3

Smoking kills???

2009-06-25T03:33:00.000-07:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Sepultura - Refuse/Resist-

Wargh~!!!

FINALLY!!!

I'm updating my fuckin blog after 3 months!!!

Ngeee~

Ngeee~

NGEEE~!!!

Well,I'm going to talk bout one particular thing that I am somehow connected to...That thing is not good for you,seriously...That thing will fuck you up...It'll fuck your health and life up...That fucking thing is called CIGARETTE!!!

Okay,I'll tell you guys how did I get involved with this shit...Hahaha~Okay,it was late 2003 and I was in Form 1...A student at SMK Gunung Rapat,Ipoh,Perak...It was Friday,and I had bowling practice after Jumaat prayers...The training was held at Ipoh Parade...Hahaha~I dunno why am I laughing,but I wanna laugh~!!!Ok,back to the fucked up story~

Before I continue my story,let me inform you guys/gals first,I started smoking because I wanted to...Not because my friend told me to...Or the fuckin advertisement on tv back then...But I smoke because I...Erm,I dunno...Because I wanted to...

Okay3...Seriously,back to the fuckin story...After training ends,Me and my good friend,Khairil Azuwa (you're busted you fuckin fool!!!Hahaha!!!) went to the public toilet on the same floor where the bowling alley is at...We had to pay 20 FUCKIN cents each to get access into the toilet...Hahaha~ Erm,We smoked in THAT toilet~Hahaha~One toilet,2 person...Hahaha~Before that,during school that day,I told my friend,Fahmi that I wanted to smoke...So he gave me one but I passed it to Khairil...Hahaha~I'm such a fuckin coward back then...

The first time I smoke a fuckin cigarette,I didn't inhale the smoke...People usually call this action,"sip"...I just took a puff and exhale...All the smoke will form a fuckin fog~Those who went into the toilet must've thought that something is burning~Ngahahaha~Me and Krill(short form for Khairil) shared a cigarette...Dunhill cigarette...Yerp,Dunhill was my first cigarette...

The first cigarette I had...What a moment...A fucked up moment...It was so fuckin stupid,I cursed myself..."Apa yang bestnya isap okok nih???Tak rsa pa2 pon..."Hahaha~Mmg cm bangang~Seriously,it felt bitter...So fuckin bitter...I continued smoking "wrongly" till 2004, when I was in Form 2...The first time I sipped,the fuckin world was split into two...Everything around me spins like a fuckin gasing...WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING TO ME?!!!And I coughed...I coughed so hard,I thought that I was going to die...And for a year,I felt dizzy after smoking...

Hahaha~!!!Well,I was a social smoker back then...Smoking occasionally,just for fun...Yerp,just for the sake of having fun...But a tragedy in 2005 changed me into a heavy smoker...MY MOTHER'S DEATH HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS!!!...I was in a state of nearly losing my mind but I did not become a heavy fucked up smoker because of that...Another tragedy fucked me up...THAT tragedy actually fuck my studies up but I regain momentum and scored...It's all because I wanted to escape from my house...Thank God,I was accepted into ASiS...Believe it or not,I never smoke when I'm inside the school's area...Not even one cigarette...But I am still a heavy smoker till now...

Started with Dunhill,then began my search for the perfect cigarette...I tried almost every cigarette...Winston,Salem(sucks like hell),Marlboro,Camel,Lucky Strike,and Sampoerna...I smoked Sampoerna Menthol for quite a long time...That is until my eldest brother,Azlizam a.k.a Izam told me that Sampoerna worsens your health more than a normal cigarette does...He smoked Sampoerna back then and he didn't know that I was a smoker...Hahaha~!!!After that,the search for the best fuckin cigarette continues...At last,I ended up with the "Teenager's Cigarette", Dunhill!!!Yerp,Dun-fuckin-hill!!!Dunia Umpama Neraka Hidup Ibarat Layang2...I'm a proud Dunhill consumer!!!

I used to smoke 14 cigarettes per night(0000 hours- 0600 hours)...That was during Form 5... Now,I smoke less...A pack-20 can last for 2 days or 3...It's a good thing for me since I am a football player...Stamina is the shit when you're on the pitch...Hehehe...I'll stop someday,when I'm married...I dun wanna grow up being a father and a husband that smokes...I wanna be a good example to my wife and kids...Hehehe...Still a long way to go...But for now,LONG LIVE CIGARETTES!!!

Erm,I think that's all for now...

To My Angel,My deepest apology if u read this...Ngehehehe~

To all readers,NEVER SMOKE!!!YOU'LL WASTE YOUR TIME,MONEY AND GOOD
HEALTH!!!

Owh,I just realized that I swear less for this topic...Hehehe~

A good thing for me,aye???

Ok...

Ciao~

#3

Raining Blood!!!

2009-03-15T15:33:00.000-07:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : ProPain - In for the kill-

HUARGH!!! WARGH!!! ARGH!!! I am feeling immensely violent right now!!! WARGH!!! Ngehehehe~ I dunno why~ Maybe because I am currently listening to violent metal songs~ Ngeee~

Actually,I have no fuckin idea what to write...The idea just...flew away like a fuckin bird~ Hey,did I told you guys about a movie that I'd watch recently???

Hahaha...A fucked-up japanese movie with a fuckin sick title - "Tokyo Gore Police"... Yeah...gore~But seriously,save your precious money and AVOID WATCHING/RENTING/BUYING THIS PARTICULAR STUPID MOVIE!!!Seriously,you'll thank me later for warning you...

THE MOVIE
This movie is about privatisation of Tokyo Police Force(in the fuckin future,of course)...Their motto changes from "to protect and serve" to "to severe and impale"...Yerp,THAT violent...But so stupid,I felt that watching teletubbies for 5 hours is better than spending 2 hours for this movie...

This movie focuses on a female police officer named Ruka(I remember her name cuz she's cute!!!) who is the best "engineer" hunter...Engineers are criminals that have been planted with a key-shaped tumor which turns them into an asshole...Nah,it makes them violent and stupid...Well,stupid is not the correct term...Yeah,asshole!!!That's right,asshole...They become violent and asshole-ic~

Well,as the story goes,Ruka lose a fight with the engineer master(the biggest asshole in the universe) and the engine master planted a key-shaped tumor in her left wrist which turns her into an Engineer...But still,she doesn't become violent because she's originally not a fuckin criminal!!!Hooray motherfucker!!!

After that,she went to uncover the truth regarding her father's murder...Ngahahaha...Her father was shot point blank using a revolver...Stupidly,his head(the father laaa) was blown into pieces!!! Gimme a fuckin break!!!It's not even magnum!!!Plus,the shooter didn't use a .50 calibre revolver!!!Argh!!!Okay2,back to the story...She managed to find out who the killer is and kill him...

THE HORRIBLE SIDE OF THIS MOVIE

The Amount Of Blood
YEAH!!!This movie SUCKS A FUCKIN LOT!!!The special effects was too stupid...Just imagine,if you severe your arm,blood will squirt out of the wound,right???This movie correctly follow the fact BUT the amount of blood was too much!!!It exceeds the the total amount of blood in our body!!!Blood "sprayed" out of the fuckin wound like a fuckin "grass-sprayer"(i dunno what the fuck that thing is called) spraying the fuckin KYUEM field every fuckin day!!!IT WAS UNBELIEVABLY STUPID!!!ARGH!!!Not only that,the blood that sprayed from a wound can be used to shower a person...Stupid...

The Special Effects
When an engineer is wounded,his/her wound turns into a deadly weapon...Okay,that is cool although it sounds stupid...But they stupidly used this concept and turned gore movie to comedy~ Yeah...a police officer got his dick bitten off by an engineer-whore...The police killed the whore but ended up with a key-tumor planted in his brain...So,he becomes an Engineer...Booo-fuckin-hooo~And guess what???His new deadly weapon is a metre-long,bullet-shooting PENIS!!! Ngahahaha!!!Seriously,it was so damn hillarious!!!A SHOOTING DICK!!!Ngahahaha!!!

Conclusion
Even for a gore-lover like me,this movie was too stupid...It does not represent gore,it humiliates gore...Gore was suppose to be fun and ugly...The amount of blood used will determine the success or failure of a gore-themed movie...House of 1000 Corpses(yea,yea,yea...I am promoting my favourite movie),SAW movies,etc are good gore movies... My fuckin advice - Don't EVER watch this movie...

#3

10th of March

2009-03-12T03:33:00.000-07:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : The Times - Gadisku Dalam Koma-

Assalamualaikum...

I never start an episode with a salam...But this episode is too meaningful for me...

10 MARCH 2005,the date for one of the most bitter event of my life...

One of the darkest event of my life...

I always wanted to write about this on the same date(2009,of course) but,herm...Nevermind...

Before that,I'd like to wish Happy Birthday to Assif(same date)...

10th of MARCH 2005,My Mother went to meet Allah...

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It was early morning at my Aunt's crib in Kota Damansara...Too early for me at least,when My Father woke me up...

"Lekaih(cepat) bangun!!!"

I was very sleepy...I thought about going to the bathroom to brush my teeth but My Father told me there was no time to spare...I obeyed My Father's order,and quickly change my clothes...I can't really think about anything back then...But a statement woke me from my slumber...A statement that I heard from My Father...

"Mak dah tenat..."

My Mother was admitted in Pantai Medical Centre...December 2004...Yeah,that was the date when she was admitted there...In 2004,some assholes "santau"-ed her...Yes,this might seem a bit stupid but yes,somebody used black magic against her...I can still remember My Mom telling me that she felt immense pain during Maghrib...But still,she stood up and perform maghrib prayers...She completed her role as a devoted Muslim...She didn't miss any prayers...

Whem My Mother told My Father about the pain,he took her to a nearby hospital...In 2004,we still live in Ipoh...So,he took her to Ipoh's Specialist Hospital...But the doctor couldn't find anything wrong with her...Everything seems fine...Normal blood pressure,normal sugar level... Absolutely nothing...By then,we realized that,

"Ada orang buat nih..."

After that,My Father took her to a bomoh...Black magic needs to be cure traditionally...I didn't follow him that day...But My Father told Me and My 4 Siblings that glass shards,hairs,"miang buluh" and other scary things came out of her stomach...And she felt pain...I love pain,but when it involves one of your own,it's not fun anymore...It's scary...

Even with countless number of treatment,traditional or modern,My Mom is still sick...One fateful day,she was diagnosed with cancer...I dunno th specific word for it but something related to her womb...The santau worsens resulting in cancer...Huh...So,she was sent to Pantai Medical Centre in KL...

She did chemotheraphy...And I cried when I watched her after the treatment...So weak...I'd chance to take care of My Mother for a weekend...Although she scolded me sometimes,I still felt that it was worthwhile...

One day,the doctor that is taking care of brought Me,My Father and My other Siblings outside of her room and said sentences that I will never forget...

"We can't do anythng else for her...She didn't have much time left...We will try to make her as comfortable as we can while she is still with us..."

Can you imagine what it feels like to hear those words???I can't take it anymore...I cried like a baby...This is too much for a boy to consume...My Mother was sleeping when I sat beside her and recite Yaasiin with tears streaming down...I love her so much...Too much,it hurts...

09th MARCH 2005...My whole family went to visit her...Actually,to take care of her during the day...My Sis will take care of her for the night...But during the day,My Mother didn't woke up from her sleep...We thought that it is normal for her to behave like that,considering all the medicine and drugs that is being pumped into her system...

10th MARCH 2005...On the way to the hospital from my aunt's house,My Sis called My Father... She was crying when she said this...

"Mak dah takdak...Masa azan Subuh..."

My Father immediately parked at the roadside and told My Big Bro to drive...He couldn't take it any longer...I heard the conversation between My Father and My Sis,but I tend to ignore...It's because at that time,I didn't believe a single word that came out from My Sis's mouth regarding My Mother...

But when we arrived at the hospital,strange feelings overwhelmed me...And those feelings were not nice...With each step towards the room where My Mom was held,I felt heavier,both physically and mentally...I just wanted to run away from the hospital...When the door was opened,I saw My Sis crying...Then,I saw a body on the bd inside the room...That person is My Mom...She's no longer with me,with us...She had a very calm look on her face...

I told Myself to be strong...But I am just a weak soul...I cried like I had never cry before...I never cried like that in my entire life...My Sis had to calm me down...One part of my heart is gone...My Queen is gone...One part of my soul is gone...Slowly,I regain my strength and wipe my tears...I walked towards the lifeless body of My Mom,and kiss her forehead...

"Mak,Afiq sayang sangat kat Mak..."

__________________________________________________________________

Since My Mom passed away,I have an uncomplete life...I cried when I listen to songs regarding a human being with the title Mother...The song "Gadisku Dalam Koma" by The Times,left a deep scar in my soul...

The Times - Gadisku Dalam Koma.

Gadisku dalam koma
Seriuskah keadaannya
Gadisku dalam koma
Seriuskah situasinya

Dengarkanlah
Lagu ini bila sedar
Betapa pilu tangisku
Ku berikrar takkan ingkar
Mogakan sembuh segera

Gadisku dalam koma
Seriuskah keadaannya
Gadisku dalam koma
Seriuskah situasinya

Maafkanlah
Diri ini jika pernah
Salah dan silap dengan mu
Ku berdoa ke atas-Nya
Moga kau pulih semula

Gadisku dalam koma
Seriuskah keadaannya
Gadisku dalam koma
Seriuskah situasinya

"Mak,Afiq sayang sangat kat Mak...Afiq rindu sangat kat Mak...Tenanglah Mak kat sana..."

Nakhiah bte Md.Nor(17/09/1951 - 10/03/2005)
Al-Fatihah...

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Devildriver - Digging Up the Corpses

2009-03-09T03:33:00.000-07:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Devildriver - Digging Up The Corpses-

Tell me another story
Tell me another story

Everyone has stories
They bore me (they bore me)
The ends are feeling nervous
Their stories, they bore me

Everyone's got
Skeletons in their closet
Don't ask me
Where they got it
You should've told the truth a long time ago
Liar, Liar! (I told you so)

Digging up the corpses (once again)
Tell me another story
Digging up the corpses
That haunts you, that haunts you
Digging up the corpses (once again)
Tell me another story
Digging up the corpses (once again)
Corpses, corpses (once again)
Corpses... digging... up the... corpses... once again

Back to another story
That haunts me (that haunts me)
Somone sheared the wolf from the story
That haunts you (that haunts you)

Everyone's got
Skeletons in their closet
Don't ask me
Where they got it
You should've told the truth a long time ago
Liar, Liar! (I told you so)

Digging up the corpses (once again)
Tell me another story
Digging up the corpses
That haunts you, that haunts you
Digging up the corpses (once again)
Tell me another story
Digging up the corpses (once again)
Corpses, corpses (once again)
Corpses... digging... up the... corpses... once again

Digging (digging, digging, digging)
Up the (up the, up the, up the)
Corpses (corpses, corpses, corpses)

I should have never let you in
Your soul is full of sin
Now your starting to begin
Digging up the corpses again

Your stories (bore me)

Digging up the corpses (once again)
Tell me another story
Digging up the corpses
That haunts you, that haunts you
Digging up the corpses (once again)
Tell me another story
Digging up the corpses (once again)
Corpses, corpses (once again)
Digging... up the... corpses... corpses... once again

Going...going...going...going...gone!

I fuckin love Devildriver!!!

YEARGH!!!

#3

FUCK THE JUDGES!!!(A 2009 KYUEM Dikir Barat Competition Story)

2009-03-07T03:33:00.000-08:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Sodom - Fuck the police(it should be JUDGES)-

FUCK THE JUDGE!!!

FUCK THE JURY!!!

FUCK ALL!!!

Yerp~

This is my fuckin reaction when the emcee announces the winner for this year's Dikir Barat Competition...

FOR FUCK'S SAKE,WE SHOULD'VE WON!!!

GARNET SHOULD'VE WON!!!

AT LEAST SECOND PLACE!!!

FUCK IT!!!

Here's how the story went~

Garnet(my house) was the first contestant for dikir barat~

We started right after Diamond's dance~

Out of all houses,I think we have the best choreographed movements~!!!

The most complicated out of all 4 houses~

From our point of view,we totally fucked up other houses...

All of em'...

But still,we didn't won~

NOT A FUCKIN SINGLE CATEGORY!!!

There were 5 categories :

BEST CHOREOGRAPHY
BEST LYRICS AND SONG
BEST "TUKANG KARUT"
BEST COSTUMES
BEST OVERALL PERFORMANCE

Based on our performance,we should've won the BEST CHOREOGRAPHY(won by Topaz) and BEST TUKANG KARUT(won by Diamond) and BEST/2ND BEST OVERALL PERFORMANCE...

Our tukang karut was the only that represents the true and real tukan karut~

FOR FUCK'S SAKE,WE STUDIED VIDEOS OF NATIONAL DIKIR BARAT CHAMPIONS!!!

Until now,I still don't get it~

At least,we should've won 2nd place~

Although I think that we deserve to be the champion~

But still,no award for us~

Not a single,fuckin award~

What the fuck did the judges wanted from a Dikir Barat performance?!

I'm not criticising other houses's performances but some house performed like they're in a concert...

I'm not a kelantanese,I'm from Kedah~

But still,I'd seen dikir barat performances~

And never before in my life,I saw something like that~

A dikir barat with a tukang karut screaming like an asshole~

No offense guys~

Well,if you feel offended,then FUCK YOU!!!

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF YOU FEEL OFFENDED OR NOT!!!

As for the dance,I'd never expeted for Garnet to win~

Not that I didn't have faith in them but their rehearsal(2 days before) wasn't that good...

But still,they overcame the odds and won second place...

Congratulations gals,The Dragons are proud to have all of you as one of us~

The won the 2nd BEST OVERALL award~

Although they should've won the BEST COSTUMES award...

Ours was the best Malay Dance Costumes out of all houses I think~

But still,other house won it~

I mean,GIMME A FUCKIN BREAK,YOU FUCKIN JUDGE!!!

ARE ALL OF YOU RETARDED?!

GARNET'S AND DIAMOND'S COSTUMES WERE WAY BETTER THAN THE WINNER'S COSTUMES!!!

Sorry to the winners but I think that other houses deserve that award more than u gals did~

I really need cigarettes right now~

Thank God I've 7 more Dunhill cigs to smoke~

Heih~

I never felt this sad for Garnet before ever since I became one of the Dragons...

Boria Competition(1st semester) was more or less a joke...

Bangsawan(last february) was a bit disappointing...

But Dikir Barat(4th march) was heart-breaking...

I felt senselessly violent after the competition~

Thank God I didn't hit anyone...

If I did,the victim would be the judges~

Next year,KYUEM should invite judges from outside~

Professionals or at least lecturers that specialises in arts~

Not KYUEM teachers~

Well,I think,that's all~

Lastly,congrats to all the winners although some of you don't deserve it

GO GARNET!!!

Nothing else...

Ciao...

#3

Funny Commercials!!!

2008-11-30T03:33:00.000-08:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Primus - My Name is Mud-

ALABAMA MAN!!!HE'S QUICK HE'S STRONG HE'S ACTIVE!!!

Ngahahaha~!!!

Rob Schneider was an animal...Then,he was a woman...

Now,Rob Schneider is~

A STAPLER!!!

Ngahahaha~!!!

ALL OF THE COMMERCIALS IN SOUTHPARK ARE FUCKIN HILLARIOUS!!!

Ngahahaha~!!!

Yeah,the Alabama Man and The Stapler are among the stupid but hillarious commercials...

I never skipped the commercials,I watched them over and over again~

Ngahahaha~

I just can't stop laughing~!!!

Ngahahaha~!!!

Anyway,I'll be going to the mall today!!!

Yeah!!!(I know I sounded like a kid)~

Need to escape this boredom!!!

Ngeee~

Perhaps I'll play bowling too~

Heee~

Gonna go for pizza too~!!!

Weee~

Ok,damn~

Gotta go now,got some plates to wash~

Just ate some nasik and sambal ikan tenggiri~

Ngeheheh~

Plus ulam timun,kacang botol,and ulam pabndantahakupontatao~

WITH SAMBAL BELACAN!!!

WARGH!!!

SEDAP NK MAMPOS!!!

Ngeee~

K,fellas~

Later then~

#3

Sat Ur Day...

2008-11-29T03:33:00.000-08:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Machine Head - Imperium-

It's been a week now~

A week of holiday~

A week of boredom~

A week of nothing else to do,to see,to hear,to experience~

Just sitting on the fuckin couch and watch tv,wondering what the fuck's going on out there~

Yes,my holiday are fuckin dull~

I have nothing else to do~

Abso-fuckin-lutely nothing to so~

Other than wating for 12.03 A.M to arrive and watch Southpark on the net~

Yes,it is boring...

Fuckin boring~

Perhaps tomorrow I'll go to a mall just to waste my time and do a survey on football boots~

I'm fuckin sure I need a new pair,I'd fucked my previous pair up~

Fuck I love that boot!!!

Huuu~

I think I should really stop writing blog every single day,I have no fuckin ideas on what to fuckin write right now!!!

I need to do something else~

Perhaps I'll go for a jog...Or do some shitty workout~

I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING!!!

ARGH~!!!

I think that's all fellas~

Later then~

#3

Holiday???

2008-11-28T03:33:00.000-08:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Dimmu Borgir - The Sacrilegious Scorn-

Good Day,fellas~

Ngeee~

A fuckin weird way to start my fuckin blog~

Damn~

FUCK,I SUCK AT SNOOKER!!!

Wargh~!!!

Anyway,today wasn't so great.I had to woke up fuckin early for Jumaat prayer...I was quite mad at myself...I don't fuckin know why...And I almost fell asleep during the khutbah...Shit~

Maybe I didn't have enough sleep~

Yeah,that must be it~

Anyway,I had lunch with my whole family (excluding Ateh and Abang)...We had lunch at My Big Bro's crib...And I "gomoi" + "buli" My Lil' Fairy~!!!

Ngeee~

It was great...The food was FUCKIN AWESOME!!!Ikan siakap masak stim tuh siot!!!Mna mau dpt kt kolej!!!HOME-MADE FOOD RULES THIS FUCKIN EARTH!!!

Argh,I love eating...And cooking~

Yeah,hard to believe but I had been cooking every single night...erm,morning since I came back from college for semester break~

Well,nasik goreng "my style" and lots of potato chips and chicken balls~

Fuck it,I should control my fuckin diet!!!

But still,I can't fuckin stop eating!!!

Wargh!!!

I'm still plannning to visit my friends in Ipoh in 2 weeks time,perhaps~

Can't really promise anything but I'll try~

It's been a fuckin long time since I last met them~

Hey,don't mind the spaces between every sentences,I'm used to doing it~

Ngehehehe~

As for onight,I "discovered" some small sausages (I think it's called cocktails) "hidden" in an ice-cream tupperware(I know it's a fuckin company but I still wanna use that fuckin word)...

Ngehehehe~!!!

YOU CAN RUN,BUT YOU CAN'T HIDE YOU FUCKIN COCKTAILS!!!

It's like in the movie Scary Movie where Shawn(or Marlon) Wayans screamed,"Run bitch,run!!!"

Oh,I love that fuckin part~

It was so fuckin hillarious!!!

Ngahahaha~

Hey,I need some suggestions regarding good metal songs...Anyone with some good ideas please inform me...I need to hear new good metal songs~

Ngeee~

Ok,I think that's it fellas~

Gotta go now~

Heee~

Later then~

#3

Cartoon anyone???

2008-11-27T03:33:00.000-08:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS EPISODE : Asesino - Regresando Odio-

Hello again fellas~!!!

Hahaha~

I don't think i need to explain any further regarding my title up there~

Ngeee~!!!

IT'S ABOUT CARTOON,MOTHERFUCKERS!!!

NGAHAHAHA~!!!

Well,ehem3~

To be specific~

IT'S ABOUT THE FUCKIN SOUTHPARK CARTOON!!!

SOUTHPARK!!!

SOUTHPARK!!!

SOUTHPARK!!!

Well,enough of this pointless screaming~

A bit intro bout this fuckin cartoon...Southpark is mainly about 4 friends who lived in Southpark...Kenny,Stan,Kyle and Eric Cartman are the main characters~

What the fuck is that?!

What the fuck did i wrote just now?!

Shit!!!

Well,I'm not gonna delete that fuckin piece of shit~

It's a beautiful piece of shit,I tell you~

Anyway,this cartoon is seriously not suitable for kids...

And I fuckin mean it!!!

I don't want My Lil' Fairy(my niece,of course) to start using the "fuck" word or any other types of "beautiful" words before she finishes her primary school,at least~

But still,I fuckin love the show!!!

I watched it online (www.southparkstudios.com),of course~

Ngehehehe~

But some episodes might be very disturbing~

But overall,Southpark is FUCKIN GREAT!!!

And the commercial,it's fuckin hillarious!!!

FUCK,I LOVE SOUTHPARK!!!

HAHAHA~!!!

But seriously,no kids,please~

Well,I think that's all,fellas~

Later~

#3

Sore Eyes...

2008-11-26T03:33:00.000-08:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS BLOG : Slipknot - Eyeless -

Wargh~!!!

I need to sleep~

Ergh~

Yesterday,I woke up at 5~

Damn~

I always woke up late~

And usually,I'll miss lunch~

Hahaha~

I don't really give a fuck bout that~

I LOVE SLEEPING~!!!

Anyway,today,I watched Southpark!!!Again!!!

Ngehehehe~

I'd finished watching season 12 and now watching season 11~

Heee~

Weird,aye???

Again,I don't give a fuck~

Ngeee~

Oh,I bought a new pack of Dunhill cigarettes!!!

Hooray motherfuckers!!!

Ergh,do i really need a fuckin haircut???

My Atak(sister..Me and my bro can't pronounce the word Akak and always ended up with Atak) always scold me~

Well,not scold actually...

Just,erm,how do we say it,lemaih(Utagha slang rules!!!) with my long hair...

My Gal said the same thing~

She even threatened to cut my hair when we meet again on a date~

Wargh~!!!

It took me almost #3 fuckin months to keep my fuckin hair this fuckin long!!!

Huuu~

But I will cut it...

Sooner or later~

But not now~

Ngeee~

Later fellas~!!!

#3

The Beginning

2008-11-25T03:33:00.000-08:00

-SOUNDTRACK FOR THIS BLOG : Devildriver - Clouds Over California-

Ergh~

Such a long time since my last blog...

I never posted it here,though...

Herm...

So,guess this is my "first" damn blog,aye???

Just a reminder,I will use lots and lots of foul and harsh languages while writing my blog...

The f-word,s-word,and all kind of insults and extreme languages will be used either in malay or in english~

Ngeee~

But still,I'll write great things(i hope)...

Hahaha~

And I'll try to update my blog regularly if I can~

Herm...

Expect my blog to be violent and bloody,k fellas???

Heee~

That's all for now...

Later then~

Ngeee~

#3